This is Courage

Met Jess today. My parents love her I can tell.

2011-10-27T03:01:00.000+08:00

Life

2011-10-25T19:53:00.002+08:00

I know where is it heading. I still see myself as usual, riding a bike, wearing jeans and jacket, going around, doing the usual things, maybe to a more extreme level. I don't see myself working your fucking normal fucked up singaporean job. Fucking boring. Its not a country thing, it's a world thing. It's a fucking curse.

http://www.foundshit.com

2011-10-07T15:13:00.003+08:00

New found love

2011-10-06T20:49:00.001+08:00

Jerry say very little people blog already. Who have and who don't? I ask Jerry help me update friend list. LOL.

2011-08-15T12:05:00.001+08:00

E M O

2011-08-11T14:22:00.001+08:00

Empty and Mindless Obsession.

SICK

2011-08-11T14:14:00.003+08:00

I feel like a sick motherfucker. Really. I think my mind is sick.

YEA YEA!!

2011-08-11T14:14:00.001+08:00

WAH WAH WAH. NOW MUST SPAM ALREADY

2011-08-11T14:13:00.001+08:00

WAH FUCKING HELL I SO LONG DIDN'T POST

2011-08-11T14:12:00.001+08:00

Favourite past time. To look and look.

2011-05-16T17:23:00.001+08:00

http://graphicdesignjunction.com/2011/05/creative-ads-50-eye-catching-advertising-posters-for-inspiration/

Team arouse

2011-05-15T17:41:00.002+08:00

Same ol' shit. Drink - Fight - Changi Hospital. Because we are team arouse.

Beer is my best friend and he wont leave me no matter what and he will always be there for me.

2011-05-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

Mariah Curry

2011-05-10T14:42:00.002+08:00

This fucker no joke really.

2011-05-05T18:07:00.001+08:00

When MTV meant Music Television not Sex, Drugs, Fame, Wealth, Shit.

2011-05-05T11:57:00.001+08:00

FUCK GE.

2011-04-30T13:18:00.001+08:00

Finally, I'm a free man.

2011-04-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

Chill and fuck off, excessive smoking, some drinks.

2011-04-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

Psychopath

2011-04-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

DMC

2011-04-11T10:59:00.000+08:00

You know, we constantly escape to places where no one knows us over the weekends.

2011-04-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

Leaving

2011-04-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

I think I'm leaving this place for a few years. You know, I dunno if this is the right thing to do. But I know to do it. I dunno how my parents will feel but I'll make them understand. The only thing I will worry is my brother. Will he understand someday?

I need to pick my life up again, learn to live alone and do things I've always wanted to do. I have maybe half a year to prepare but I dunno where to start. Can I just go?

My 2 years of stress and fucked.

2011-04-07T11:29:00.002+08:00

Is finally about there. Time to celebrate. Thanks for those who stood by me, hear me rumbling about same things over again. We were just like brothers.

Turn me on so hard.

2011-04-04T16:51:00.001+08:00

Memories blurred

2011-04-03T23:45:00.003+08:00

I looked back at (photos) i just don't wanna mentioned this word. I feel like deleting cos I know I have to. There's nothing more that I can look forward to. Is this is a responsibility? Or the wasted feeling? I am going nowhere now either. I have just told her a thousand words, sober.

Comp's back

2011-04-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

My comp's back, laptop's gone. Racer blood is back, cowardice gone. Wanna hit the tracks next year. All geared up and ready.

What the whatever

2011-03-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

I really dunno I can graduate or not. Nothing is making sense. I don't think I'm a good student, and I can never be. Did I study for the wrong reasons? Why people can but I just can't. The books study me instead of me studying them.

And I can never sit still for fucking 2 mother fucking hours in the exam hall. 1 hr and I'm out. And work is ok but, is it work? Job? Career? Life? What's the fucking difference?

I think I should get the fucking cert over and done with for the sake of not wasting parents money, and do something that I want. Sorry, I need to restudy and maybe do a fusion. I think I should chase my dream. Go be a racer? LOL. Why is the culture rather unsupportive here? Or skeptical. I don't like. I see people living weird lives and I think that's for me.

The kiss, sweetest.

2011-03-14T02:12:00.001+08:00

Confused, lost, hurt, worried, fucked.

2011-03-14T02:07:00.001+08:00

Hi.

2011-03-14T02:03:00.001+08:00

It's been more than half a year. I know that blogs don't say anything but there's where I can get a little info. I can ask, but well. I dunno. Happy birthday. I wish you all the best.

Close to Flame

2011-03-11T18:08:00.001+08:00

Hi

2011-03-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

Hope dangles on the end of a loose shit.

2011-03-02T10:32:00.000+08:00

She talked to me today which made my day. Look at the date.

2011-02-14T15:59:00.001+08:00

A while.

2011-02-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Escape reality temporarily.

2011-02-12T08:26:00.000+08:00

Story

2011-01-22T12:33:00.002+08:00

Once a Mother, Father, and son took a horse from their town and went on a journey.

They pass by a village and the son sat on the horse, and the mother and father walked. As they pass by the village, the family heard the villagers say, "Fucked up son, no filial piety, let the parents walk".

So when they pass by the next village, the mother sat on the horse and the father and son walked. As they pass by the village, the family heard the villagers say, "Fucked up mother, supposed to take care of the family, just sit on the horse and act like she supposed to be serve".

So when they pass by the next village, the father sat on the horse, and the mother and son walked. As they pass by the village, the family heard the villagers say, " Fucked up father, supposed to be the head of the family. Sit on the horse relax and let his family suffer".

So when they pass by the next village,, the whole family walked. As they pass by the village, the family heard the villagers say, " Fucking stupid family, got horse don't wanna sit".

So when they pass by the next village, the whole family sat on the horse. As they pass by the village, the family heard the villagers say, " Fucked up family, one small poor horse whole family sit on it".

2011-01-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

Everytime you call my name, I heat up like a burning flame. Burning flame, full of desire.

2011-01-12T10:58:00.001+08:00

When it's over, is it really over?

2011-01-12T10:33:00.000+08:00

Skate to lunch, skate to town, skate everywhere.

2010-12-29T10:25:00.000+08:00

My Little Brother.

2010-12-26T06:38:00.002+08:00

ว่าฉันเป็นคนโง่เหนือใครๆ มีรักแท้อยู่ ดูแลไม่ได้

2010-12-23T10:50:00.002+08:00

Ngom Ngai

2010-12-23T10:41:00.000+08:00

Fucking year.

2010-12-21T00:25:00.004+08:00

I've just realized it's been a year. And as I look at my previous posts, I'm still bitter, not at you, but I'm still drunk. I'm not sober. I'm still lost, in shock, in something that has drifted so far, I dunno what it is. I still do the same routine, I still check on you.

Only difference, I'm supporting myself, I smoke more, I drink much more. I drink so much it's become a habit. It may seem more than a year, but I lost hope for a year. I tried to let go and see if you did a year back. You did. I still had hope, for another more than half a year. I didn't change. But I couldn't recognized you and the things you say. But I think its me, and how fucked up a person I am?

I know it doesn't matter anymore. You've moved on, I accepted the fact unwillingly, but I still accepted it. But my heart didn't move on. It's still stuck 2 years back, and I can't find it anymore. I'm not a wastrel, I'm not a loser. I'm not an emo shit, I'm still the same me. Things I do keep me going forward. I still have those dudes around that are worth it, but there's something they can't fill.

But it really doesn't matter right now, because that part is gone. I sincerely have no demands from you right now. It's enough talking to you from 2 years ago, in a frame right beside my bed hanging on the wall. I couldn't take it out. Even if other girls saw, I still can't.

Would love her to do this.

2010-12-20T17:55:00.001+08:00

Can we have more creativity in even the most basic stuff.

2010-12-20T17:53:00.003+08:00

What I always do.

2010-12-18T10:38:00.000+08:00

kam waa rak man glaai bpen foon bpai laew

2010-12-17T16:12:00.000+08:00

KL Zouk next week. Time to forget all the fucked shit of 2010.

2010-12-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ

2010-12-14T12:37:00.001+08:00

2010-12-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

2010-12-09T16:46:00.003+08:00

Why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favourite parts? We'll skip the goodbyes. If I had it my way, I'll turn the clock around. and way, I'll turn the clock around, and runway, just you and I.

2010-12-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

This piece of shit really hell.

2010-12-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

http://www.heahea.org/1116-Why_you_should_never_post_pictures_on_the_internet

Photoshop fail max.

2010-12-08T17:01:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you still love them with all the little pieces.

2010-12-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

2010-12-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

2010-12-08T11:28:00.000+08:00

2010-12-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

On a rollercoaster ride, quite a long time on the downsides.

2010-12-06T03:54:00.002+08:00

Die faster.

Stair case emo sessions.

As usual, temporal getways.

Why did you come into my life?

2010-12-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

We have some good stuff and some bad stuff.

2010-11-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

I was so tempted to chase back my past.

2010-11-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

Each time I go through us, it still hurts.

2010-11-19T21:28:00.001+08:00

Am I still in your heart? I mean of course not. Haha.

2010-11-19T20:03:00.001+08:00

Are you still in my heart?

2010-11-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

Whatever will be won't be. You can change.

2010-11-01T14:06:00.002+08:00

Can we please get drunk everyday single fucking day and forget everything.

2010-10-26T23:47:00.001+08:00

Thuy Linh

2010-10-21T22:53:00.001+08:00

When a girl tells you she loves you, what's the actual meaning?

2010-10-08T11:55:00.003+08:00

1. Anyway now I also sian, everyday nothing to do. Maybe your friends are fun to hang out together.

2. Wah your car swee leh.

3. Song, can get new stuff.

4. Just try then see how.

5. If better one comes, then dunno how already.

6. If you can't change then fuck off. Your weaknesses minus 10 points. Your strengths plus 1.

7. Shiok for a while, after a while sian.

8. Dunno you can win all my ex-es or not.

*different people different variance.

Love and hate are best friends. Memories introduced then to each other.

2010-10-03T06:01:00.001+08:00

Andrew Stockdale.

2010-09-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

We'll soak our livers in wine, and flood our hearts with whiskey. Bury our kidneys with beer, and hide our lungs in tar.

2010-09-21T10:34:00.001+08:00

HANBIN SAYSSS

2010-09-09T21:10:00.001+08:00

RISE AND RISE AGAIN UNTIL KUKU JIAO BECOME PHOENIX.

What?

2010-09-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

RISE AND RISE AGAIN UNTIL LAMBS BECOME LIONS

2010-09-09T10:28:00.001+08:00

Rise and rise again before lambs become lions sound bite Robin Hood (2010) sound bites

Foon

2010-08-25T17:48:00.001+08:00

Mai kao jai.

True true.

2010-08-23T12:00:00.001+08:00

คำว่ารักมันกลายเป็นฝุ่นไปแล้ว
The word love, it's turning into dust already.

อะไรที่หวังก็พังไปตั้งนานแล้ว
Whatever that's been hoped for, it's shattered a long time ago,

แต่ชีวิตไม่รู้ทำไม มันยังคงค้างคาใจ
yet life, I don't know why, it still remains in my heart,

ไม่มีวันใดที่ฉันไม่จดจำ
Never a day that I'll forget.

กับคำว่ารักยังจำได้อยู่เสมอ
The word love, I still remember it always.

หลับตาทุกครั้ง ยังเจอเธออยู่ตรงนี้
Everytime I close my eyes, I still see you here.

ความเข้มแข็งที่ฉันเข้าใจ อ่อนแอลงทุกนาที
The strength that I know of feebly lessens every minute,

อยู่ดีๆ ใจก็ร้องไห้อีกครั้ง
all of a sudden, my heart cries again.

ยังคิดถึงเธอเหลือเกิน ได้ยินไหม
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?

เธอยังอยู่ในหัวใจ ของฉัน
You're still in my heart.

ข่มตานอนทุกคืน ยังฝัน ยังเห็นว่าเรารักกัน
I force myself to sleep every night, still dream of, still see that we're still in love.

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ
Where are you? I miss you.

ชาตินี้ไม่มีสิทธิ์เจอ จบแล้วก็เข้าใจ
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.

แต่จะให้ทำยังไง เมื่อในหัวใจยังจดจำ
But what am I suppose to do? When my heart still recalls.

คำว่ารักยังพอให้ต่อชีวิต
The word love is still good enough to move on in life,

ยังทำให้คิดถึงวันเก่าๆ เหล่านั้น
still makes me think of those good old days.

ได้แต่หวังลึกๆ ในใจ
I can only hope deep inside my heart,

จะมีบ้างไหมสักวัน
Will there ever be a day

สิ่งที่ดีๆ เหล่านั้นจะกลับมา
those good things will come back?

ยังคิดถึงเธอเหลือเกิน ได้ยินไหม
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?

เธอยังอยู่ในหัวใจ ของฉัน
You're still in my heart.

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ
ter yoo tee nai kit teung ter
Where are you? I miss you.

ชาตินี้ไม่มีสิทธิ์เจอ จบแล้วก็เข้าใจ
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.

แต่จะให้ทำยังไง เมื่อในหัวใจมีแต่เธอ
But what am I suppose to do, when my heart only has you in it?

As usual the drunk mother fuckers end up waiting outside A&E again.

2010-08-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

Whisky Lullaby

2010-08-02T17:41:00.000+08:00

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

How?

2010-07-28T23:53:00.003+08:00

How long will it last when you say you truly love a person
How much of it is actually for the company
How far can you go for acceptance
How much will you forgive his mistakes
How many good points you overlooked cos of the reverse
How close are your reasons to excuses
How hard do you try to justify your point of pride
How magnanimous are you
How regretful are you
How much did it affected you
How much of the memories stayed with you
How long
How long did you take to forget them

Long? Long enough for me to miss you badly but not even close to long for me to get you off my mind.

2010-07-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

I need to migrate to get out of every single fucking memory lane. I need to start anew.

2010-07-25T17:28:00.001+08:00

How can I really understand what's love again?

2010-07-25T17:24:00.002+08:00

WALK WITH ME IN HELL.

2010-07-20T15:24:00.001+08:00

Miss my old bike and the good old days. Sounds retarded but its true.

2010-07-16T10:45:00.000+08:00

Berserk.

2010-07-14T20:15:00.002+08:00

Of course it's fucking exaggerated. But look at the widow who killed herself. Wtf. Suicide is extreme. Even living meaninglessly, being a hedonist, is better right? But it's the dead heart feeling. I fucking hate this song. But somehow, it just keep ringing.

Another gloomy night. Let's get week started, done with the exams, and numb myself again.

2010-07-05T03:12:00.001+08:00

Bye, with 4 goddamn fucking years of memories, you'll be greatly missed.

2010-06-30T23:54:00.001+08:00

Corey Tylor from Slipknot

2010-06-30T23:50:00.001+08:00

I really wish I wasn't so wrecked. I'm trying hard, but I do things out of control.

2010-06-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

Qualified to be in the league.

2010-06-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

"Dimension"

I fell down in the desert baby, yeah
I had nothing but a peice of paper, oh yeah,
I had to write something down,
And I found myself alone, then I let go of everything,
Into another dimension

Purple haze is in the sky,
See the angels wicked eye
all these things we must try
'Till we see the reasons why, oh yeah

Lightning crash on the hill tonight,(yeah)
I got a feeling everything is gonna be alright
Then a horse came running to me
Said we're gonna go to the sanctuary
Then a storm began to blow,
Into another dimension.

Purple haze is in the sky,
See the angels wicked eye
all these things we must try
'Till we see the reasons why, oh yeah

I got lost in the desert baby, yeah
I found temples made out of paper, oh yeah
I had to write something down
But then i found myself alone
Then i let go of everything
Into another dimension

All you fucking maggots don't you just love him.

2010-06-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

Damn suitable, DESTROY EVERYTHING!!

2010-06-15T11:09:00.001+08:00

SHAG; let's all be maggots.

2010-06-15T10:45:00.004+08:00

I think its time I should give up?

I've been in a fucking dilemma for damn fucking long. And talks of neverending. Whatever decision I will have to make, it still seems damn fucking wrong. I try to live in deception. But let's be more realistic. I can't possibly power myself on booze and adrenaline forever. I'll be just a fucking coward trying to escape for as long as I can.

---
I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can't see
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed

Miss your smiles and laughters, cheers and giggles.

2010-06-05T12:30:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY. I don't think I can ever carry my hope anymore. Anyway, Ronnie cheered me up a little.

2010-05-31T00:10:00.002+08:00

Same old Sunday routines where I look back at the week and never fail to think of the past.

2010-05-24T02:03:00.000+08:00