Sunday, December 26, 2010

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Fucking year.

I've just realized it's been a year. And as I look at my previous posts, I'm still bitter, not at you, but I'm still drunk. I'm not sober. I'm still lost, in shock, in something that has drifted so far, I dunno what it is. I still do the same routine, I still check on you.

Only difference, I'm supporting myself, I smoke more, I drink much more. I drink so much it's become a habit. It may seem more than a year, but I lost hope for a year. I tried to let go and see if you did a year back. You did. I still had hope, for another more than half a year. I didn't change. But I couldn't recognized you and the things you say. But I think its me, and how fucked up a person I am?

I know it doesn't matter anymore. You've moved on, I accepted the fact unwillingly, but I still accepted it. But my heart didn't move on. It's still stuck 2 years back, and I can't find it anymore. I'm not a wastrel, I'm not a loser. I'm not an emo shit, I'm still the same me. Things I do keep me going forward. I still have those dudes around that are worth it, but there's something they can't fill.

But it really doesn't matter right now, because that part is gone. I sincerely have no demands from you right now. It's enough talking to you from 2 years ago, in a frame right beside my bed hanging on the wall. I couldn't take it out. Even if other girls saw, I still can't.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favourite parts? We'll skip the goodbyes. If I had it my way, I'll turn the clock around. and way, I'll turn the clock around, and runway, just you and I.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Monday, December 6, 2010

On a rollercoaster ride, quite a long time on the downsides.


Die faster.


Stair case emo sessions.



As usual, temporal getways.

Friday, December 3, 2010