Skate to lunch, skate to town, skate everywhere.

My Little Brother.

ว่าฉันเป็นคนโง่เหนือใครๆ มีรักแท้อยู่ ดูแลไม่ได้

Ngom Ngai

Fucking year.

I've just realized it's been a year. And as I look at my previous posts, I'm still bitter, not at you, but I'm still drunk. I'm not sober. I'm still lost, in shock, in something that has drifted so far, I dunno what it is. I still do the same routine, I still check on you.

Only difference, I'm supporting myself, I smoke more, I drink much more. I drink so much it's become a habit. It may seem more than a year, but I lost hope for a year. I tried to let go and see if you did a year back. You did. I still had hope, for another more than half a year. I didn't change. But I couldn't recognized you and the things you say. But I think its me, and how fucked up a person I am?

I know it doesn't matter anymore. You've moved on, I accepted the fact unwillingly, but I still accepted it. But my heart didn't move on. It's still stuck 2 years back, and I can't find it anymore. I'm not a wastrel, I'm not a loser. I'm not an emo shit, I'm still the same me. Things I do keep me going forward. I still have those dudes around that are worth it, but there's something they can't fill.

But it really doesn't matter right now, because that part is gone. I sincerely have no demands from you right now. It's enough talking to you from 2 years ago, in a frame right beside my bed hanging on the wall. I couldn't take it out. Even if other girls saw, I still can't.

Would love her to do this.

Can we have more creativity in even the most basic stuff.

What I always do.

kam waa rak man glaai bpen foon bpai laew

KL Zouk next week. Time to forget all the fucked shit of 2010.

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ

Why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favourite parts? We'll skip the goodbyes. If I had it my way, I'll turn the clock around. and way, I'll turn the clock around, and runway, just you and I.

This piece of shit really hell.

http://www.heahea.org/1116-Why_you_should_never_post_pictures_on_the_internet

Photoshop fail max.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you still love them with all the little pieces.

On a rollercoaster ride, quite a long time on the downsides.

Die faster.

Stair case emo sessions.

As usual, temporal getways.

Why did you come into my life?

We have some good stuff and some bad stuff.

I was so tempted to chase back my past.

Each time I go through us, it still hurts.

Am I still in your heart? I mean of course not. Haha.

Are you still in my heart?

Whatever will be won't be. You can change.

Can we please get drunk everyday single fucking day and forget everything.

Thuy Linh

When a girl tells you she loves you, what's the actual meaning?

1. Anyway now I also sian, everyday nothing to do. Maybe your friends are fun to hang out together.

2. Wah your car swee leh.

3. Song, can get new stuff.

4. Just try then see how.

5. If better one comes, then dunno how already.

6. If you can't change then fuck off. Your weaknesses minus 10 points. Your strengths plus 1.

7. Shiok for a while, after a while sian.

8. Dunno you can win all my ex-es or not.

*different people different variance.

Love and hate are best friends. Memories introduced then to each other.

Andrew Stockdale.

We'll soak our livers in wine, and flood our hearts with whiskey. Bury our kidneys with beer, and hide our lungs in tar.

HANBIN SAYSSS

RISE AND RISE AGAIN UNTIL KUKU JIAO BECOME PHOENIX.

What?

RISE AND RISE AGAIN UNTIL LAMBS BECOME LIONS

Rise and rise again before lambs become lions sound bite Robin Hood (2010) sound bites

Foon

Mai kao jai.

True true.

คำว่ารักมันกลายเป็นฝุ่นไปแล้ว
The word love, it's turning into dust already.

อะไรที่หวังก็พังไปตั้งนานแล้ว
Whatever that's been hoped for, it's shattered a long time ago,

แต่ชีวิตไม่รู้ทำไม มันยังคงค้างคาใจ
yet life, I don't know why, it still remains in my heart,

ไม่มีวันใดที่ฉันไม่จดจำ
Never a day that I'll forget.

กับคำว่ารักยังจำได้อยู่เสมอ
The word love, I still remember it always.

หลับตาทุกครั้ง ยังเจอเธออยู่ตรงนี้
Everytime I close my eyes, I still see you here.

ความเข้มแข็งที่ฉันเข้าใจ อ่อนแอลงทุกนาที
The strength that I know of feebly lessens every minute,

อยู่ดีๆ ใจก็ร้องไห้อีกครั้ง
all of a sudden, my heart cries again.

ยังคิดถึงเธอเหลือเกิน ได้ยินไหม
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?

เธอยังอยู่ในหัวใจ ของฉัน
You're still in my heart.

ข่มตานอนทุกคืน ยังฝัน ยังเห็นว่าเรารักกัน
I force myself to sleep every night, still dream of, still see that we're still in love.

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ
Where are you? I miss you.

ชาตินี้ไม่มีสิทธิ์เจอ จบแล้วก็เข้าใจ
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.

แต่จะให้ทำยังไง เมื่อในหัวใจยังจดจำ
But what am I suppose to do? When my heart still recalls.

คำว่ารักยังพอให้ต่อชีวิต
The word love is still good enough to move on in life,

ยังทำให้คิดถึงวันเก่าๆ เหล่านั้น
still makes me think of those good old days.

ได้แต่หวังลึกๆ ในใจ
I can only hope deep inside my heart,

จะมีบ้างไหมสักวัน
Will there ever be a day

สิ่งที่ดีๆ เหล่านั้นจะกลับมา
those good things will come back?

ยังคิดถึงเธอเหลือเกิน ได้ยินไหม
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?

เธอยังอยู่ในหัวใจ ของฉัน
You're still in my heart.

ข่มตานอนทุกคืน ยังฝัน ยังเห็นว่าเรารักกัน
I force myself to sleep every night, still dream of, still see that we're still in love.

เธออยู่ที่ไหน คิดถึงเธอ
ter yoo tee nai kit teung ter
Where are you? I miss you.

ชาตินี้ไม่มีสิทธิ์เจอ จบแล้วก็เข้าใจ
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.

แต่จะให้ทำยังไง เมื่อในหัวใจมีแต่เธอ
But what am I suppose to do, when my heart only has you in it?

As usual the drunk mother fuckers end up waiting outside A&E again.

Whisky Lullaby

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

How?

How long will it last when you say you truly love a person
How much of it is actually for the company
How far can you go for acceptance
How much will you forgive his mistakes
How many good points you overlooked cos of the reverse
How close are your reasons to excuses
How hard do you try to justify your point of pride
How magnanimous are you
How regretful are you
How much did it affected you
How much of the memories stayed with you
How long
How long did you take to forget them

Long? Long enough for me to miss you badly but not even close to long for me to get you off my mind.

I need to migrate to get out of every single fucking memory lane. I need to start anew.

How can I really understand what's love again?

WALK WITH ME IN HELL.

Miss my old bike and the good old days. Sounds retarded but its true.

Berserk.

Of course it's fucking exaggerated. But look at the widow who killed herself. Wtf. Suicide is extreme. Even living meaninglessly, being a hedonist, is better right? But it's the dead heart feeling. I fucking hate this song. But somehow, it just keep ringing.

Another gloomy night. Let's get week started, done with the exams, and numb myself again.

Bye, with 4 goddamn fucking years of memories, you'll be greatly missed.

Corey Tylor from Slipknot

I really wish I wasn't so wrecked. I'm trying hard, but I do things out of control.

Qualified to be in the league.

"Dimension"

I fell down in the desert baby, yeah
I had nothing but a peice of paper, oh yeah,
I had to write something down,
And I found myself alone, then I let go of everything,
Into another dimension

Purple haze is in the sky,
See the angels wicked eye
all these things we must try
'Till we see the reasons why, oh yeah

Lightning crash on the hill tonight,(yeah)
I got a feeling everything is gonna be alright
Then a horse came running to me
Said we're gonna go to the sanctuary
Then a storm began to blow,
Into another dimension.

Purple haze is in the sky,
See the angels wicked eye
all these things we must try
'Till we see the reasons why, oh yeah

I got lost in the desert baby, yeah
I found temples made out of paper, oh yeah
I had to write something down
But then i found myself alone
Then i let go of everything
Into another dimension

All you fucking maggots don't you just love him.

Damn suitable, DESTROY EVERYTHING!!

SHAG; let's all be maggots.

I think its time I should give up?

I've been in a fucking dilemma for damn fucking long. And talks of neverending. Whatever decision I will have to make, it still seems damn fucking wrong. I try to live in deception. But let's be more realistic. I can't possibly power myself on booze and adrenaline forever. I'll be just a fucking coward trying to escape for as long as I can.


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I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can't see
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed

Miss your smiles and laughters, cheers and giggles.

SUNDAY. I don't think I can ever carry my hope anymore. Anyway, Ronnie cheered me up a little.

Same old Sunday routines where I look back at the week and never fail to think of the past.

RISE AND RISE AGAIN UNTIL LAMBS BECOME LIONS

Everything around reminds me of you. Hanging by bed, driving through places, just different faces.

Kat.

I'm not totally useless. I can be used as a bad example.

Mo more racing on road. Let's do it off road.

Team Arouse. Half Resort World Sentosa half Whisky+Beer.

Golf course builders. Charlie's uncle David, original 1960's 70's hippies. Eventful weekend.

HONDA XR125 VS HUSQVARNA 125 SM

4 stroke
More practical
Fuel Efficient
Parts easy to find
Looks so so



2 stroke
Fun
Fuel hungry
Parts from dealer?
Looks- pussy magnet

It's like a sawdust stuck in my eye that I can't ever seem to remove.

Flash back months ago.

I felt that I haven't really do a proper post for a very long time and although I'm drained of energy down to my balls, I'll probably gonna get my insomnia again which is fucking irrirtating. I need alot of sleep. And my whole weekend is just to sleep. But anyway, I wanna release some thoughts which is not comprehensive and detailed enough but it's ok.

I think after so much, I won't die in any situation. Those who know will know. Team Arouse. Those who wanna know can ask. Lazy...

But seriously I'm just fucking going through motion, though I really still enjoy and appreciate my friends. But I don't see the fucking end of the tunnel. Everyday I'm still bogged down by alot of thoughts, though I won't let it affect much of my life but it's still there. I feel that there's no need to have so much life topics to be elaborated etc, it wouldn't make anything different anyway. They're just satisfying the dissonance theory.

So actually, just fuck all the thoughts thats going through.

Nevermind, just fucking DO THAT, CERTAINLY. (WAH KA TIK SI TAM POH NO GO).

7 eleven beer got offer. Woohoo. Certainly a savior, a stress reliever, a relaxer, a sleeping pill- use in moderation.

Peng, scrambler... On me. next 2 months. Thanks.

Are you in love?

I dreamt about you.

Bitches they come and go. They act cute but you never know. They say things like a mofo yo.

Who was there with me when I needed them the most, only they know... Even when they know what I needed the most. Cheers.

OPEN ENDED CONVERSATIONS.

Good Friday drunk style.

When you hold on to the past such that it becomes a stumbling block in life. I envy those who can take it graciously and leave the past behind.

Because love that's why love.

But late than never, better drunk than sober.

I should really not expect anything already.

Only God Knows Why. Maybe He doesn't know.

v

My fist, my foot. stomach and liver is gonna hurt so badly tmr. I really dont wanna wake up.

If you really love someone, accept them for who they are. I've seen too much. Disgusting.

Who wanna follow me go US be junkie. Just fuck it everyday relac jack. No problems. Chill all the way, leave in happiness.

G to the Fu.

Yesterday 2 of us ONLY. Lunar, followed by nana. No joke. 2 of us only. Fucking best. Best buds, best times.

Why Reptile no balls.

Jam everyday jam. Oh!

Rihanna in Hokkien.

Can't you see what you've done to my heart, and soul? This is a wasteland now.

Am I still sane? I just don't seem interested anymore.

Somehow you look sooo off now.

Sorry, you know that she still holds a place in my heart. I've lost myself when she was gone and the rules have changed.

when times of doubt prevail
thou shall trust in thy sovereignty
when sin staineth thee
thy blood hast set me free

Check out my new ink.

It's better to be loved than to love. Woops.

If I'm just going through motion, at least let it be smooth.

I can't think of other things.

KNN. Nvr felt so sick before. Haha. Uncomfortable.

A failure where there's no remedy. And I'm still thinking abt it.

Now I understand how you felt. Sucks right?

BEST VIDEO IN A LONG TIME. Featuring DKOH on vocals. GFU on guitars. LJX on drums. Bringing to you a cover soon.

Where's that zest that nothing can give to me now??

I'm like your sweetest curse.

Kinda sad, can't maintain, appear happy, and drink again.

I can't believe it really affected me that much. I'm weaker than I thought. Now I'm a zero fighter. Show me some directions.

Definately not a good year, needless to say, a good date. Still feeling sour.

Cool advice on smoking up. Mary Jane.

This doesn't marks anymore sadness. It's just become an emotionless part of me. Ask them about it.

So you don't ever come telling me about all these things that I don't believe in anymore. You can get me some high and walk away.

She got it well out of me, but there was no love at all. What is that?

Then, I looked at her and said, "What the fuck". And I walked away.

I'm sorry if I were to hurt you in anyway, but you won't be able to know me for me cos I won't allow it. Because I had my first and my last.

Now I know what's Mask of Sanity all about. Mask.

It's not about the fucking subject of love. It's about the person. It's my temporary getaways. WOOHOO.

I couldn't sleep again, I drank. I can't seem to concentrate on no shit now.

Look back at laugh or what? I miss my mobile. Everything stored inside is gone.

I don't need peeps to feel bad. It's fucking not about feeling bad.

How far you really are, living on the other side?

As hard as I try, I can't seem to make my world complete. Thanks friends, for trying to fill the gap up. But it's different.

As usual end up at hospital again. FUCKED UP.

God dont keep di siao me leh. Knn. So long alr still not enough ah?

I am still very caught up with it. Teach me how to life my own life.

Please grant me a little joy in this hectic shit.

Travis Barker you relax a while I take over.

Blink 182 will bless me for my interview. Childhood sweetheart band. They thought me how to say "FUCK". I got stuck in Tom's butt.

Under the moonlight, away from your sight. I try not to hide, but you ask me go fly kite.

If the lyrics were so true.

Things look good so I shouldn't interupt anymore?

Hi.

Bye :(

ONLY when they say, NOW I know why you keep drinking that I know the reason why.

It really seems like its the toughest thing ever for me ever after being on this planet for some time.

I envy people around who can take it gracefully :)

Brain activity forcing me awake. Shagg. I need a few days of proper slp.

When the day comes that I'm not awake at this hour, then I'm alright.

Hopefully in one year's time, I'll be the same.